i don't think anyone reads this anymore
which is why i think i'm safe to write about some more personal stuff. I finished the last page of my actual private real paper journal last night, and i didn't have a chance to buy a new one today, and i don't want to start another one on just some random piece of paper. so here i am writing about my teenage troubles on the world wide web.
I've come to the conclusion that i'm much too confrontational. Every time i sense a problem i talk about it with the person and usually they don't even realize anything is wrong and then they get mad at me for bringing up problems that 'don't even exist' and then i look like an emotional fool. Dammit! not cool colleen not cool.
Rielle just apologized to me for not sticking up for me the other day. Aww. Love her.
Hmm maybe there are some people out there who understand me and just don't get the chance to say it all the time. Perhaps i should stop being whiny and appreciate what i have.
So to continue what i was saying earlier, i bring up problems so that we can work through them and so that they don't continue to grow and turn into really big problems. Yet most of the time i just get chewed out for fabricating problems out of thin air. And that makes me feel stupid at the time, and i apologize and blame it on me being emotional and stupid.. but when i think about it.. maybe it's not my fault. I'm just trying to do what's best and if someone cares about me wouldn't they see that? I just don't know.
.... In other news....
-Heather's home from Thailand.. yay
-My kitchen is now completely useless and off-limits until it's done being renovated
-I found a really gross spider in my room the other night
-I'm really slacking on my baby blanket knitting which sucks cause Alison's not slacking on her baby-making which means the baby is still coming out in august whether or not the blanket is ready!
-We have 3 more rehearsals until hiatus! That should be fun!
Alright now i am going to get ready for bed like a normal person and get into bed like a normal person and then fall asleep like a normal person and TOMORROW i will do my best to pretend i'm a normal person.
Love,
Colleen
I've come to the conclusion that i'm much too confrontational. Every time i sense a problem i talk about it with the person and usually they don't even realize anything is wrong and then they get mad at me for bringing up problems that 'don't even exist' and then i look like an emotional fool. Dammit! not cool colleen not cool.
Rielle just apologized to me for not sticking up for me the other day. Aww. Love her.
Hmm maybe there are some people out there who understand me and just don't get the chance to say it all the time. Perhaps i should stop being whiny and appreciate what i have.
So to continue what i was saying earlier, i bring up problems so that we can work through them and so that they don't continue to grow and turn into really big problems. Yet most of the time i just get chewed out for fabricating problems out of thin air. And that makes me feel stupid at the time, and i apologize and blame it on me being emotional and stupid.. but when i think about it.. maybe it's not my fault. I'm just trying to do what's best and if someone cares about me wouldn't they see that? I just don't know.
.... In other news....
-Heather's home from Thailand.. yay
-My kitchen is now completely useless and off-limits until it's done being renovated
-I found a really gross spider in my room the other night
-I'm really slacking on my baby blanket knitting which sucks cause Alison's not slacking on her baby-making which means the baby is still coming out in august whether or not the blanket is ready!
-We have 3 more rehearsals until hiatus! That should be fun!
Alright now i am going to get ready for bed like a normal person and get into bed like a normal person and then fall asleep like a normal person and TOMORROW i will do my best to pretend i'm a normal person.
Love,
Colleen
posted by Colleen! @ 1:33 AM
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